How are you guys? How is the autumn treating you all? To be honest, we haven’t got the autumn weather here yet. It’s still very hot, still pretty much feels like summer.
BTW sorry for being MIA from here and on my social media, my ACL tear issue arised again and I had to take a break. If you remember from last year’s spring, I got ACL tear then by falling down from the stairs.
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And it decided to give me a visit again (aahhh if only humans loved me as much injuries love me lol). If I were to be honest I never really did took care of it as much as I should have so I had this coming.
Anyway, all this time sitting all by myself in a room I got to realize a few things, thoughts from which I usually ran from by keeping myself busy. So I thought of penning down my feelings rather than bottling them (usual move).
I was evaluating how my summer of 2017 has been, what were my plans, how much did I do, how much did I learn. Firstly, call it my being hard on myself or being critical but I think I wasted away this year’s summer trying to heal heart-broken Ankita. Yeah, I guess I probably am the person who takes the most time moving on (not even exaggerating). So… yes a lot of time got wasted, I am not proud of it I mean I tried to get past it but lol what do I tell you I am an emotionally driven person, hence the mess.
Secondly, I realized I have been irresponsible, lost in my tiny issues I neglected a lot of things. I need to realize closing your eyes or going into oblivion doesn’t ever help.
Third – I might seem to be an extrovert and outgoing but I am an introvert at the same time. So I need time to myself. Some days, conversations and people drain the soul out of me and I have no energy to carry a conversation. Wish people understood that I am not ignoring them, it’s just I need to alone time. And maybe that time I didn’t find there wasn anything important, urgent or they really needed me that I needed to snap out of my alone time and give them my attention. (not sure if any of this makes any sense, I am trying my best to explain a mess of thoughts in my head but arrghh!)
Forth – I SERIOUSLY need to learn to take care of myself, like for real. I usually brush off the need by saying can’t help it I am bad at it! I keep on wishing to have people who love me and take care of me. But while that happens someday I need to learn it myself too especially when it comes to health (look at the rate I get injuries). I have the most unstable weight cycle, I keep losing and gaining my weight a lot. If you saw my last outfit post, you will know I lost a lot of weight and my chubby cheeks that too in a week. And I didn’t do anything, no gym no diet. This is the second time I had a sudden weight loss this year. I guess stress affects my weight drastically, so yep… need to keep a check on it so I can get my chubby cheeks back!
Fifth – I am grateful for the opportunities I got this year, even though I feel I didn’t work hard enough to get them but I will work harder to be deserving. Though a lot of things didn’t work out this year and had some setbacks but I need to be thankful for the little good things that happened to me. (This is one of my 2017’s goal – learn to be grateful)
Sixth – Ok this is probably one of the best thing that happened to me this year. While on my on-going break I got to closely observe and listen to people talk about their passion, their plans, goals and watch them work towards it, made me realize a lot about mine. And the mess in my head seems to get a lil’ clearer.
Seventh – I have to learn to be patient. No matter how hard I try, things will happen in it’s due time. I have to accept that some things aren’t under my control, will never be. So all I can do is give my best and give it time.
So this has been a sneak peak in my mind, I am sorry if it’s too long, I never can keep it short lol! Honestly, there’s still a way lot of things in head but I need to process & understand it first. Anyway, enough about me, tell me how your summer has been this year? What have been your fondest memories this summer? What are the some realizations you had this year? Any new thing that you learned or are learning?
In this post, I tried mixing prints together, how you can wear stripes with other prints without looking OTT. And keeping the autumn in mind, I added a printed scarf to add to the mood of the outfit 🙂
Red Crop Top – Forever 21
Palazzo Pants – fbb
Heels – Forever 21
Sunnies – Forever 21
Watch – Zaful
Peace Pendant – H&M
Printed Scarf – Street Shopping
Purse – H&M